~A Message from my Dream Self~

What is my name? I suppose it changes depending on the situation. I don't know how I got to this place. Im not always here, either, and I don't know exactly where I go when I'm not here. Still, whenever I return to here from wherever else I've been (although I don't remember), it somehow feels natural. But there is, unmistakably, another place that I spend my time; somewhere that emits a transmission of certain memories and imparts knowledge to my self in this dimension. People like to call this place simply, "The Realm". I feel like I have some shared friends between this realm and the other realities, but I just can't figure out who I am over there.

Okay, so you may be tempted to label me as insane at this point… But the thing is, I've been told about these other realities countless times within MANY experiences by beings that know more than I do, but I just still can't fully understand the phenomenon since my memories of these other realms are but limited to rare moments of deja vu.

It seems as if the things that happen to me (and others) in this realm affect our selves and situations in other realities too; and vice versa, the things that happen in those other realities affect what we experience in this realm. Vague sentiments and memories of other realities often creep up on me in the form of disguised, metaphorical logic- for instance, I'll be getting ready to go somewhere and be losing everything in frustration… yet somewhere deep down, I'll know that this isn't *really* what's happening (or at least it's not the only thing that's happening)- it's merely a reflection or an extension of something that has been happening in a different reality. Sometimes, I'll find myself worried about a disagreement I had with my boyfriend, and I'll be trying to make it better… but I will know that this disagreement didn't happen in The Realm. It might be more of a metaphor… What *isn't* a metaphor here in The Realm? And yes, the subjectivity does become rather confusing. Still though, I carry on.

Some of the friends I know are fleeting; some are recurring; and others, I feel a deeper connection with (my boyfriend, for example). My theory is that those beings whom I feel a deeper connection to perhaps are the ones that I know in other realities as well as here in The Realm. Sometimes in this strange, surreal haze that I can't seem to identify as anything but a series of disjointed yet somehow related experiences, my friends and I seem to be absentmindedly referring to this "other place" and it makes sense in the conversational content… yet when I really step back and consciously think, I sometimes become confused and wonder… What are we, as a collective of This Realm, trying to accomplish? What am *I* trying to accomplish, other than to become a master manifestor of realities? And why is this so important, like the natives of The Realm continuously tell me it is? If I can't even remember these other realities, sometimes I am unsure of the point!

Much of my 'training' to become a reality manifestor takes place through a series of classes which I attend. The content and teachings of these classes relate to the mystery of where I might spend my time when I am not in The Realm. Other beings (human forms, like I am) attend these classes with me and the teachings are done in the same hazy, surreal, way that we are used to. The underlying meaning of each lecture is always embedded in heaps of metaphorical jargon. In Existence 101, we learn how to perform certain actions during the course of an experience within The Realm that will reportedly affect something greater. According to the teachers, these greater applications seem to encompass the ability to manifest happenstances within the place or places where we spend the rest of our time between our remembered experiences. This is, of course, only for the non-native beings that also relate to me in my feeling of having another 'home' in space somewhere else.

Some beings that I meet seem to be ultra-intelligent and communicate in ways that are a bit more straightforward, on the other hand. According to them, they spend all their time here. They also offer good advice.

One occasion in which a native's advice came in handy was when I gave birth to my child. Immediately after the birthing, a motherly instinct within myself that I hadn't even known I had kicked in. But before I could even get to know him, my baby began immediately speaking in tongues, told me his name was Desmonysus and walked off to explore The Realm. This motherly instinct told me that I should go after him and protect him (though to be fair, he *did* seem to possess an innate sort of knowledge that even I didn't have. After all, even though he did come from me, he was still a native). Right when I was about to go after him, one of those ultra-intelligent Realm-dweller women told me that no, babies born in this realm already knew all they needed to navigate the terrain. She claimed that these types of children certainly knew more than I did, though not more than she did (the pretentious lady). One other interesting thing she taught me was that since I'd given birth to a child in The Realm, I now had a messenger baby who had the ability to scope out The Realm and report intuitive wisdom back to me whenever I was instead present in whatever other realities I inhabited while I was not on that plane of existence. I still am unsure of how it even feels to have this intuitive wisdom transmitted over to me while in these other realities, because I obviously don't have the capacity to remember. It sounds like an important thing to have, though, if I am ever to become a master reality manifestor! I had to learn to not be physically attached to my baby because the connection we shared would instead be a psychic one, and I had to accept this.

Fortunately it didn't take long for me to accept, what with the ever-present Metaphor surrounding and enveloping us all.